Finding Your Flow: Day 3

 For the next 19 days, I will be working through a meditation series. Each day I’ll be reflecting on several questions provided in the series, and invite you to join me by clicking the above link.

Finding Power
(written 4/18)

Who do you look up to as a model of self-confidence?

I look up to my friend M for her self-confidence. She is so in tune with her own sense of self that she rarely makes decisions which aren’t in her best interest… I feel as though I often lack that ability and make decisions out of alignment with what is best for me.

I admire my former classmate D for her confidence and flexibility with new situations. I can only hope to retain such mental flexibility as I gain mental experiences–I don’t want to become stuck in my ways.

I also look to my former roommate N for her confidence in her appearance. Her commitment to ensuring she looked her best taught me that there is huge value to be gained in presenting to others the person you want them to see, and that the inner beauty shines from that.

Describe a situation where you needed to do a task and you didn’t know how you would do it, but you rose to the challenge because something inside said, “You can do this.” As you recall that situation, what did that confidence feel like? What or who inspired you to take the courageous step? Did you feel that strength centered anywhere in your body?

I don’t need to describe for myself the situations where I’ve had to face a person in the mirror I didn’t want to see, and overcome that. Every time I have done so, I’ve had an usually untapped wellspring of strength within me so that when I make up my mind, the decision is final and I can see it through to the end. I think that feeling comes from somewhere squarely in my chest (think Iron Man’s ARC reactor), and it isn’t always so easy for me to tap into. When I do though, most people call me an unstoppable force.

Write about an area in your life where you are talented – perhaps it is problem-solving at work, and you have acquired an easy confidence. Feel that confidence in your solar plexus and know that when your life is flowing, that confidence will be there, always.

First off, I think it’s fascinating that each time I’m asked to identify where in my body something flows from, I am usually able to correctly identify the place. Maybe that means I am more in tune with my own flows than I thought, and I just need to learn how to turn them on and channel them.

Distractions aside, people tell me that I am good at public speaking, and I have come to believe them from years of feedback. Despite the anxiety I always feel preceding a speaking event, I seem to be able to tap into a power and confidence and present it to others in a way that makes them engage with me. That confidence would serve me well if I could find it more.

Use this space to reflect further on your experience today.

I’m a couple days behind right now because of traveling, but I hope to catch up by the end of the weekend. It’s hard to get adjusted to the time change here in London, but now that I’ve got the website working, hopefully things will go more smoothly.